I am so intrigued at this site. I have spent many years since puberty dealing with this with myself. While I never felt "gay" I did feel a need to bond with men. I thought this a sin and tried t repress it. I feel in large part becuase my father was not a role model that was needed. I am married and LOVE my wife, love having sex with her and enjoying her body AND mind. However, I still feel a need to somehow mutually bond with a man. Not as a homosexual and not penetration; but an open, cooperative sharing of bonding and resulting physical pleasure. I have had some experience with other boys--usually in stealth and unfortunately followed by extreme guilt. Most of these also occurred out of curiosity and di not represent the mutual need for bonding. I know you mentioned that if a boy does not bond sexually to another male--it is too late and he can never overcome those issues. Is it really that hopeless? Is there no source of relief or healing to deal with the void? I do not want to be in an adulterous experience, I love my wife, but I also would like to have platonic sexual bonding with another male--as well as the mental and emotional aspects of such a bond as well.
I am so intrigued at this site. I have spent many years since puberty dealing with this with myself. While I never felt "gay" I did feel a need to bond with men. I thought this a sin and tried t repress it. I feel in large part becuase my father was not a role model that was needed. I am married and LOVE my wife, love having sex with her and enjoying her body AND mind. However, I still feel a need to somehow mutually bond with a man. Not as a homosexual and not penetration; but an open, cooperative sharing of bonding and resulting physical pleasure. I have had some experience with other boys--usually in stealth and unfortunately followed by extreme guilt. Most of these also occurred out of curiosity and di not represent the mutual need for bonding. I know you mentioned that if a boy does not bond sexually to another male--it is too late and he can never overcome those issues. Is it really that hopeless? Is there no source of relief or healing to deal with the void? I do not want to be in an adulterous experience, I love my wife, but I also would like to have platonic sexual bonding with another male--as well as the mental and emotional aspects of such a bond as well.
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